As you may (or may not) know, last Thursday my daughter Mia went to Hopkins for some testing. She had a UTI at the beginning of September, and apparently when that happens in a child her age they like to do further testing to rule out bladder reflux. I wasn't "happy" with the idea of her having a VCUG but I figured, rather be safe then sorry. She also needed a kidney u/s which I wasn't at all concerned about because it's non-invasive. The u/s went off without a hitch, and the VCUG, well, I can't say the same for that procedure, but Mia tolerated it as well as you would expect an 8 month old to.
After the testing we met with a Pediatric Urologist who told us that the VCUG was fine (no bladder reflux) and the kidney u/s seemed okay, but one kidney was smaller then the other. He said it very non chalant and care free, so being as though I am NOT a doctor, I put that statement in my memory bank and moved on.
On Friday I receive a voicemail from her Pediatrician (who I love), reiterating the fact that the VCUG was fine, but there were some concerns with her u/s that we needed to discuss, oh yeah, and that she was leaving for the day, so to touch base on Monday. WHAT?!?!?!??! All weekend there was that lingering fear of the "what ifs".
First thing this morning I called her Ped, who immediately apologized for leaving that message. It was one of those instances where the words are coming out, and as they are coming out you are thinking, "SHUT UP! What am I saying?!?!?" but it's too late! :) Yeah! (at least she acknowledged her error). But I digress...she told me that she did have concerns with her u/s and would now like us to meet with a Nephrologist (kidney specialist) to see what is going on...is the kidney not growing? is the kidney not functioning? etc. I know that everything could be a-o-k, and I know, I know, people can live with one kidney but this is my BABY we are talking about! My just-turned-8-months-old baby! I don't want to see her have to go through a DMSA scan and possibly more testing!! UGHHHHHHHH!!!
And I also know that it could ALWAYS be worst, so I should be thankful that this is "all" it is, but still, it's scary! The not knowing!
So if you pray, which I hope you do :) please say a prayer for Mia that this too is NOTHING and we can put it all behind us.
Thank you! :)