Monday, April 29, 2013

20 weeks

Well friends, we have reached the halfway mark in the pregnancy of Baby Gomez #3! :) So remember how on my 18.5 week post I said it was crazy that I was almost halfway there, wellllllll, I'm not going to say, "I can't believe we're halfway there!" because if I'm being honest, it hasn't flown like my pregnancies with Manuel and Mia! ;) I'm NOT complaining, just stating facts! :) With Manuel and Mia I swear I found out I was prego and it seemed like the next day I was giving birth :) I'm not sure if it's because we found out SO early (I knew I was prego when I was barely 3 weeks post conception), or if it's because we aren't finding out (honestly, I think that has A LOT to do with it! :)) something doesn't seem so "quick" this time around! :) I keep reminding myself that this will be my last time carrying a child so I need to enjoy every minute!!!! :)

How far along? 20 weeks
Symptoms: my face is SO broken out! :) It looks like I have a constellation on my forehead with pimples! ;)

Weight gain/loss: Eeeek, after a day of carbs yesterday, I swear I'm up a total of 4 lbs now! :)
Gender: Surprise baby!!! :) We found out with both Manuel and Mia, and since this will be our last child (I can't imagine a 4th c-section) we figured this one should be a surprise!

Maternity clothes? here and there, but I can still wear all of my pre-prego shirts and all of my pre-prego pants (with the help of my belly band! ;))
Sleep: It could be better! :) I think I just need to stop drinking so much water before bed! That would definitely help!

Food cravings/aversions: nothing really
Movement? a ton and I LOVE it! I can't wait until Manny, Manuel and Mia can feel it too! :)

What I miss: a full nights sleep, but again, if I stopped drinking so much water before bed, I think that would help! :)

Best moment(s) this week: just feeling the baby move
What I'm looking forward to: Mothers Day and my next prenatal appt because my friend is going to try and squeeze me in for a few pics and hopefully I can get some cute 3D ones :)
Next appointment: May 15th

And in case you missed this picture in yesterdays post. Here is my bump (one day shy of 20 weeks :)



Sunday, April 28, 2013

Beautiful Saturday

We had several days of B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L Spring weather so we decided, with our Saturday completely open, we would venture 20 minutes down the road to the Baltimore Inner Harbor. It was a goregous day to be outside and just experience something that Mia has never experienced and Manuel has only seen once, even though it's right down the road! :) There are awesome restaurants, gorgeous boats, street performers and just a fun atmosphere.

And for good measure (our day in photos :))















 Baby bump :)
 20 weeks down, 20 weeks to go :)







Monday, April 22, 2013

Crazy? Perhaps ;)

Social media/blogging/etc. are funny things...you feel like you know so much about a persons life through it, when in actuality, you COULD know little to nothing, depending upon how much real life they post. A lot of times I get in my own head and think that people (friends on Facebook, blog readers, etc.) must look at my posts, statuses, pics, etc. and think, "Wow, Mia must really be her favorite!" and that really bothers me (I understand it could be completely untrue, but that's just how I feel sometimes! :)) Even if it is totally crazy! The truth of the matter is that in our house, Manuel is VERY much a Daddy's boy and Mia is VERY much a Mommy's girl! We do things together ALL THE TIME as a family of 4 (well technically 5 if you could Baby M in my belly! ;)) but there is also many times where the boys do their "boy stuff" (Boyscouts, baseball games, etc.) and Mia and I do our "girl stuff" (Girls Night Out (where my friends from high school and I get together with our kids and go to dinner, etc.), playdates to the park, etc. The majority of my friends have girls around Mia's age or much younger boys) And needless to say, I ALWAYS have my camera with me, taking pictures of Mia and our days out, and meanwhile, my husband, who could care less about pics and just wants to be in the moment, takes Manuel everywhere and seldom EVER gets pics! So, when they were about to leave for their 1st Orioles game of the season on Saturday night I told my husband, "PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE take pictures! Even if it's just with your phone!" :) So just to be clear, I love both of my children exactly the same amount, but my husband isn't a stickler for pictures like I am! ;)

So, here are some pics from their first baseball game of the season...
 Manuel and his best buddy from our neighborhood

 Batter up! Manuel doing the batting cages
 Dads and their sons :)
My two favorite guys! :) 

Friday, April 19, 2013

All I have....

Sometimes a ton of words aren't necessary (although I'm NOT known for my lack of detail, just ask hubby! ;)) But I wanted to share my Facebook status from this morning, because friends (those of you that actually read my posts, I pray for you EVERY SINGLE DAY) sometimes are Faith is all we have!

Growing up I remember always hearing my Nonna (usually in the kitchen cooking something :) talking to herself. As I got older I realized she wasn't talking to herself all those times (and I mean it was all day, everyday) she was praying. I never understood why someone would find the need to pray SO much, that is, until I got older, and strengthened my walk with God...I now get it! I pray SO much, ...everyday! Friends, don't take the time to pray that all of this craziness will end because it's not going to, in fact, it's only going to get worst, but pray for your Salvation and the Salvation of those you love. This will all be gone in the blink of an eye, the suffering will continue but we will all be some place too amazing to even wrap our brains around, as long as you know Jesus! :) Not to get all preachy this early on a Friday morning :) but it's the truth!

Please pray for Boston, our country, our nation...Lord knows, we need it!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

18 (and a half! ;) weeks

Hello friends! :)

Today was our "big" ultrasound today! :) Here is Baby #3 (as I've mentioned several times before, my sonographer is one of my best friends from high school, so she tried SO hard to get a good 3D picture of our sweet baby, but Baby M (their first name will start with an M :)) had his/her face smashed into the placenta, so there were no good 3D pictures. I'm just super happy the baby is growing on target and healthy! :) I do have to go back next week for her to try and get a better picture of the spinal cord, so MAYBE he/she will have shifted and we can get a good 3D picture :))


How far along? 18w 4days


Symptoms: none really

Weight gain/loss: it was confirmed today that I am up a total of 2 lbs from my first prenatal appt. 18.5 weeks prego and only up 2 lbs...I'll take it! :)
Gender: Surprise baby!!! :) We found out with both Manuel and Mia, and since this will be our last child (I can't imagine a 4th c-section) we figured this one should be a surprise!

Maternity clothes? I've busted out the "belly band" a few times (which I NEVER with had with my two prior pregnancies! :)) and I've worn a pair of maternity shorts, but as for the shirts...since I'm still not really showing, I feel like I just like overweight when I wear a maternity shirt! :)
Sleep: It could be better! :) I think I just need to stop drinking so much water before bed! That would definitely help!

Food cravings/aversions: nothing really
Movement? a ton and I LOVE it! I can't wait until Manny, Manuel and Mia can feel it too! :)
What I miss: a full nights sleep, but again, if I stopped drinking so much water before bed, I think that would help! :)

Best moment(s) this week: definitely today getting to see the baby and make sure he/she is healthy! :)
What I'm looking forward to: my follow-up ultrasound next week to make sure everything is okay with the spin and MAYBE get some more cute pics! :)
Next appointment: other than my u/s appt next week, my appt after that is 5/15.

I'm almost halfway there...that is crazy! :)




Thursday, April 11, 2013

The Marriage Series: In Good Times and in Bad

This is a super lengthy post, so feel free to grab a cup of coffee, put your feet up, relax and start reading (or just skip over it entirely! ;)) *A huge chunk of this is copy and pasted from previous posts that just put our entire story together :)

It has been a LONG time since I've posted about anything of "substance" here on my blog. Don't get me wrong...my current pregnancy, my children, and the everday parts of my life are SO important to me, and I try to take the time to document them here, but as far as REALLY delving into deep parts of my soul, it's been awhile. Two of the bloggers who I follow are doing a series on marriage, and when I saw what this weeks topic was, I had to link up. Although I'd venture to say this subject might be a bit "taboo" for some people, this is my life, and I NEVER miss an opportunity to share one of the worst, most trying times in my life with others, in hopes of showing people that our God is AMAZING! People can change! Every intrictate detail of life is so awesomely woven together by God that one simple "misstep" in life can change your entire path, but God makes no mistakes. So, without further rambling ;) here's my story...

I could have never imagined that I'd be "that girl". I was always so in tune with the behaviors and actions of the people around me. Even in my wild and crazy days, when I was hanging with a wild and crazy crowd, if you were "on something", I knew it! Even if I was on it too, I knew it. I had that intuition. Perhaps it was from growing up in a household where my father was a drug addict and alcoholic, who knows, but either way, I KNEW! I felt sorry for those friends of mine who were "good" (translation: didn't do drugs) and had no idea that their boyfriends were high and doing drugs. "How dumb are they?", I thought. Little did I know, I would be eating those words one day.

Manny and I started dating in the spring of 2005. He was your typical bad boy (jail time included). I was your typical good girl turned bad out of sheer desperation for attention and love. I fell hard and fast for Manny. He did drugs, I did drugs. It was just part of our relationship. Come June 2005, a mere 3 MONTHS after we started dating, I became pregnant. The drinking, drugs, smoking, everything came to a halt for me, the moment I found out I was pregnant. They slowly came to an end for Manny (or so I thought).

Fast forward...
Manny and I had been married for a little over 3 years. Things were going well (or so I thought). Manuel was 3, amazingly smart, growing like a weed, and the apple of our eyes. I was working hard as a Pricing Analyst at a mortgage company. Manny had just quit working for my stepfather's business to try and better himself and started driving a truck for a local printing company. We had just "graduated' from an apartment to a townhouse (we were still renting) and life seemed good.

One day, I randomly decided to check the bank account on-line (which I NEVER did) and noticed a $25 check written to my husbands brother (a drug addict). I called Manny and asked him why he had written his brother a check. He made up some crazy story (which I didn't believe), and I hung up the phone. I continued to scroll through the bank account and noticed several checks written to his brother, several withdraws, etc. (He did the bills and banking, at the time). I called him back and demanded answers!

Manny wept on the phone to me that he had been doing drugs (street and prescription. I had NO clue!). He couldn't stop, he needed to go away to rehab (it was THAT bad!). When we both got home from work that day the search began for an inpatient rehab that Manny could go to ASAP. We couldn't find a place that night. It was getting too late and most places needed to confirm things with our insurance and wouldn't be able to accept him until the next day.

I woke up the next morning and took Manuel to daycare and took myself to work (I'm that kind of person who is VERY much a "go to work no matter what is going on at home" type). Manny called me a few hours later to tell me that he found a place, his grandmother was taking him, and they would only take him if he came NOW! He didn't get to give me a hug and kiss goodbye. He didn't get to say goodbye to Manuel or give him a kiss. He was gone, just like that. I was going to be a single mommy, temporarily, and have to make my 3 year old think that Daddy was away at work.

How could I be SO dumb? How did I not know? And to be honest, I don't think I'll ever know the answer to those questions, but I don't dwell on it anymore. I didn't know that he was a drug addict (prescription and street), and that's all I can say! Manny was in rehab for two weeks (clearly not long enough, but we couldn't afford for him to be off work any longer). Manuel thought he was away for work and when we went to visit him (Easter Sunday) he thought the place we were visiting was where he was staying for work. Keep in mind, he was only 3 at the time, so he didn't know better (my goodness, if this happened now, he would NEVER buy it! He's SO smart) But we were separated for two weeks, Manny came home and all seemed well. He was offered his job back and of course took it. Life seemed to be going smoothly until Manny relapsed. May 11, 2009. My world was shattered! How could this be happening!??!??!?! What was I going to do???? My mom was going to be heart broken. She would be beside herself if I forgave him again and decided to stay AGAIN. WHAT WAS I GOING TO DO!?!??! Here we go again...


May 12, 2009 Manny entered rehab again. This time at a hospital (to also deal with his emotional/anxiety/mental issues brought upon him by a pretty horrific childhood!) He was gone again, but this time, I was oddly okay with it. Would he get better? I had no clue, but I knew that for two weeks I did everything on my own (the first time he went away) and I COULD DO IT! This was huge for me (I am VERY much a dependent person. I always have been. My mom made my doctors appointments for me until I was 20 (well not really, but you get my point! :)) So he left, and I cried, but I was okay. I told him that HE would be the one telling everyone where he was this time. It was not up to me to pick up the pieces and tell his grandmother (who was BEYOND devastated), my mom (who was also BEYOND devastated), etc. He needed to take full responsibility for his actions and that was that. If he got better this time...good. If he didn't...good. I was okay on my own, and I would do EVERYTHING in my power to raise Manuel to be an amazing person whether Manny was part of it or not.

May 15, 2009...Manny was gone at rehab. My best friend since I was 8 was visiting (she thought Manny was on a fishing trip...only my family knew). We were hanging out, our boys were playing. My cell phone rings and it's my Aunt Kathy (my dad's sister) and I knew it couldn't be good...my dad was gone. At the age of 59 he had died of a stroke (years of drugs and alcohol of abuse will do that to you). My dad was dead, my husband was in rehab, and my best friend was standing in front of me while I lost it! "Call Manny! He has to come home from his fishing trip! You just lost your dad." Veronica said over and over again. I couldn't muster any words. Do I keep lying? Do I tell her the truth? What to do? Finally I said it, "I can't! Manny isn't on a fishing trip, he's in rehab." Of course she stood there in shock! I don't remember exactly what happened next. I know my mom, aunt and uncle came over to comfort me (and of course Veronica stayed). Manny happened to call and I had to break the news to him. Of course he was guilt ridden that he couldn't be there for me. But he was where he needed to be. Life would have to go on. My dad was gone, but honestly, I felt peace about it. Manuel was going to miss PopPop (even though he was only 3, he and my dad were very close) but I had to be strong. I had to keep it together. And I did....

May 23, 2009...the day after my dad's memorial service I wasn't feeling well, so I took a pregnancy test. You guessed it, it was positive. My husband was a (recovering) drug addict, my dad had just died, and I'm pregnant and bringing a child into this mess (before I found out about Manny and his drug addiction, in my blissful ignorance, we had been trying to have another baby).

I had to try and make this work. IF Manny could stay sober, I owed it to my children, to God, to my husband, to myself to try and make our family work. (I understand that might be SO hard for you some of you to understand. Trust me, looking back, I don't know how I did it, but I am SO glad that I did. God knew what he was doing! :))

Almost four years have passed since Manny got sober. Too many memories and details to put in this post or it would take you DAYS to read it (if you are even still reading! :)) All I can say is that God entered our lives fully and completely, and that probably helps you fill in that four year span! :)) But I am beyond happy to say, that we are still HAPPILY married (more in love than we have EVER been!), Manuel and Mia are healthy and happy, Manny is 100% sober, we are expecting baby #3 in September and life is good. We celebrated our 7 year wedding anniversay on March 30, 2013 and I can honestly say I love him more today than I EVER have! But what makes me most happy about this entire situation, and the "silver lining" (if you will) is that I know that the cycle of addiction has ended (or at least that is the prayer from the depths of my soul). You see, my dad was an alcoholic and drug addict, so was my grandfather. Manny's dad was an alcoholic and drug addict, so was his grandfather (well not so much drugs, but drinking). Manny dealt with addiction. I went through a REALLY bad phase of drinking a lot and doing a lot of drugs (not to the point of addiction but I was doing them A LOT). I DO NOT WANT THAT FOR MY CHILDREN, EVER! And I honestly think, that the cycle of addiction is OVER! My children will grow up in a household where they go to church, love God, Mommy and Daddy are sober and healthy, etc. And I know anything can happen, BUT, I pray that the cycle of addiction is over!

Thank you God!

Thank you for reading (if you still are! :))

 The love of my life!
 The most amazing father a child could ask for! :)

Daddy giving Mia a "knuckle sandwich" at lunch yesterday :)


Monday, April 8, 2013

17 weeks

Life is SO short, time flies so quickly, and as I get to a more "comfortable" stage of pregnancy (ie. not feeling sick all day and having some energy back), I am trying to TRULY enjoy each day. Trust me, I NEVER take my pregnancy for granted, as I know there are millions of women who would love to trade places with me but along with not taking it for granted, I want to ENJOY it! So that's where I'm at this week! :) *And as soon as I have a belly to show, I'll show it! :)

How far along? 17 weeks


Symptoms: none really
Weight gain/loss: Definitely, at least 2 lbs
Gender: Surprise baby!!! :) We found out with both Manuel and Mia, and since this will be our last child (I can't imagine a 4th c-section) we figured this one should be a surprise!

Maternity clothes? I have a TON of absolutely adorable borrowed maternity clothes from friends, but haven't had to wear any of them yet
Sleep: It could be better! :) I think I just need to stop drinking so much water before bed! That would definitely help!

Food cravings/aversions: still can't stand the thought of frozen pizza or a local Mexican restaurant that I gorged on one night at the beginning of my pregnancy, but other than that, I try to keep it SOMEWHAT healthy ;)

Movement? Absolutely! It's becoming more and more apparent each day! :)

What I miss: a full nights sleep, but again, if I stopped drinking so much water before bed, I think that would help! :)

Best moment(s) this week: just starting to feel better and more like myself again! My mood has definitely improved (Just ask my husband! ;)
What I'm looking forward to: my next ultrasound. I just want to hear the heartbeat again and see he/she. Also, this will be Manny's first time seeing him/her, so that's super exciting too! :)

Next appointment: April 17th which will be an OB appointment as well as my "big" scan...check the heart, body parts, etc. NO GENDER REVEAL, of course! ;)

Now a cute story to share and a few pics from the weekend...
Everyday Mia hears us praying about a friend from church who is battling cancer. She knows that he is very sick and each day we pray for him to get better. When we got to church yesterday we learned that sadly, hospice has been called in, the end if very near and when I heard this I started to cry a lot. Mia asked what was wrong and I explained to her that Mr. B is very sick and will be going to Heaven with Jesus soon. She said, "Don't cry Mommy. That means he won't be sick anymore and he'll be all better!" If only we thought more like children! Please keep this family in your prayers as "Mr. B" has a wife, a son, a grandson, a daughter-in-law and sweet granddaughter on the way!

 It's baseball season so I had to dig out Manuel's old Orioles jersey for Mia to wear this season :)
 Killing time outside of the grocery store while hubby ran in for a few things (hence the reason why he's not correctly buckled! ;)
 My sweet baby girl and I
 Enjoying a trip to the park after church! :)

 


Monday, April 1, 2013

16 weeks and a few (or a ton ;) pics

How far along? 16 weeks
Symptoms: I'm still tired, but now I'm wondering if it's less to do with pregnancy and more to do with just life! ;)
Weight gain/loss: I think I've officially gained a pound, possibly 2! Eekkk! I'm not sure why I'm having a hard time accepting weight gain this time around...I know, I know, it's bound to happen! :)
Gender: Surprise baby!!! :) We found out with both Manuel and Mia, and since this will be our last child (I can't imagine a 4th c-section) we figured this one should be a surprise!

Maternity clothes? not yet. My friend Lauren, who is also my hairdresser will be doing my hair on April 5th and giving me a ton of clothes. This is the first time I'll be prego PREGO during the summer, so she is graciously sharing her maternity clothes with me as her daughter was also born in September. Yay me! :)

Sleep: It could be better! :) I think I just need to stop drinking so much water before bed! That would definitely help!
Food cravings/aversions: still can't stand the thought of frozen pizza or a local Mexican restaurant that I gorged on one night at the beginning of my pregnancy, but other than that, I try to keep it SOMEWHAT healthy ;)
Movement? Absolutely! It's becoming more and more apparent each day! :)

What I miss: a full nights sleep and hot dogs! :) I'm not a person who ate hot dogs often, but every once in a blue moon I'd love a good turkey dog, and now I can't! :( It dawned on me the other day that I'll have to a full summer of cookouts without hot dogs! :( I'll survive! ;)
Best moment(s) this week: finding out yesterday at Easter dinner that my cousin Megan is only 3 weeks behind me in pregnancy! :) We are both so excited that we'll be prego together and our babies will be SO close in age!
What I'm looking forward to: my next ultrasound. I just want to hear the heartbeat again and see he/she. Also, this will be Manny's first time seeing him/her, so that's super exciting too! :)
Next appointment: April 17th which will be an OB appointment as well as my "big" scan...check the heart, body parts, etc. NO GENDER REVEAL, of course! ;)

Now, a hodge podge of the last few weeks, in pics! :)



 Mia's 1st trip to the dentist (3.23.13) She did AMAZING!!!!!! :)

She got to wear sunglasses that were a TAD too big! :)
Saturday (3.30.13) was our 7th wedding anniversary, and where did I pick to go...Chili's! :) I know, I could have splurged a bit, but I wanted chips and queso! :) Plus, we let the kids come along too, so everyone could pick something they would enjoy! :)
 It was a BEAUTIFUL day, so after dinner we walked around the Avenue, enjoyed the sunshine, and made some wishes in the fountain

The loves of my life :)

 After dinner and our beautiful evening out, we came to color Easter eggs and make Resurrection rolls



Making the Resurrection rolls...definitely going to be a yearly tradition! Neat way of teaching the kids about the REAL meaning of Easter! :)
 Easter morning...getting ready to leave for church


Patiently waiting for the music to start...she stays with me (Manny is an usher) during the music portion (about the first 15 minutes), then I take her to her Sunday school class. She LOVES music!
 Getting ready to head out for the annual Easter egg hunt at Manny's moms house...it was a BIT chilly! :)

 Sweet, sweet cousins...crazy to see how much they change from year to year :)
Manuel's photography skills at work :)

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!!!!! :)