Saturday, May 16, 2009

My daddy

As if May couldn't be any more horrible of a month (this is the month my triplet nephews passed, the month that my sisters (the triplets mommy) best friend passed and the month that my brother-in-laws (the triplets daddy) mom passed) my dad passed away last night. Unexpectedly, yet expectedly at the same time, if that makes any sense. He has struggled for years and years with addiction. It wasn't until recent years that he finally seemed to be on the up and up. My son Manuel got to know and love his PopPop (and his delicious meatballs! :) and things seemed to be going well. I got a phone call last night from my Aunt (my dads sister) saying that he had a massive heart attack, was rushed to the hospital and they weren't able to revive him. I'm only 27 years old, this shouldn't have happened!!!!!! :( We were supposed to be celebrating his 60th birthday in August, here at my house with a crab feast, he was supposed to get to be able to go with Manuel and my husband on their first "real" fishing trip within the next few years, and now that's not going to happen! :( I'm in shock, and I'm SOOOO sad, but my dad faced many "demons" over his lifetime and do know that he is FINALLY at peace in Heaven. And he is finally getting to meet his triplet grandsons. This is SOOOO hard!!! I know my familiy will help me through this, but it's SOOO hard. Daddy, I love you!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

One year

One year, 365 days, 52 weeks, 12 months, no matter how you say it, it has been that long since 3 little boys came in to this world and left this world, 3 little boys that should be here today. 3 little boys whose 1st birthday we should have been celebrating on this very day, but unfortunately Jesus had other plans. Anthony Michael, Mateo Joseph and Ian Vincent Brannock entered this world entirely too early and Jesus called them home. We will never know why, until we get to Heaven. But what do know one thing, these little boys made a HUGE impact in our family in the very, very, very short time they were here and we will never forget them. Their mommy and daddy miss them terribly. All of us miss them and wonder “what if” every day but unfortunately life can not be lived that way. Today we will look up to Heaven and cry and hopefully muster a smile to 3 little boys who are celebrating their “angelversary” (as another angel mommy, Robin, so beautifully put it on a blog that I follow). We know that they are being very well taken care of in Heaven. We know that one day we’ll get to see them again. Until that day to Anthony, Mateo and Ian…we all love you SO much and we miss you!!!!

**On a quick side note…Amy and Mike decided to get away for a few days to help ease the pain of this anniversary and when they arrived at the hotel Mike immediately opened up the curtains which overlooked the ocean and what do they see…3 dolphins swimming in the ocean right in front of them! Coincidence, absolutely not, to Amy, Mike and Aunt Christina, that was a sign from their 3 little angels telling them (and their baby brother-to-be) “Hello!”

Thank you for following Amy and Mike’s journey this last year, and for all the prayers, love and support.

Prayers and love to you all!