Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Well, well, well, it's been awhile friends! I hope you all are doing well! Everything is going well over here (minus an AWFUL day at work today due to a very nasty encounter, first thing this morning, with a very nasty co-worker!!!! :( He screamed at me (for just doing my job), I cried (a lot) and then was just emotionally spent the rest of the day. Unfortunately I let it ruin my ENTIRE day, but thankfully tomorrow is a new day and it all starts fresh! :) I'm working from home which is awesome AND its Dr. Seuss week at Manuel's school so I'm going to his school in the morning and reading, "Mr. Brown Can Moo..." I'm SO excited! :) Let's see, what else to fill you in on...Hubby is leading a project at work and I am SOOOO proud! He really is amazing!!! He is absolutely a blue collar work, and is stepping up to the plate, stepping out of his comfort zone, getting himself acclimated with a computer (which sounds so strange to many of us, but it's just not something he's ever really used a lot (other than Facebook and e-mail ;)) and just making me SO proud! :) Here are some pictures from this past weekend (none of hubby! :(( I've really been slacking the picture department lately! :(

Mia and I at "Girls Brunch" with all the ladies in my family! Love them! :)
I could just eat her up!
I had NO clue he was giving me bunny ears! :)

Funny Face and Crazy Hair ;)
Up close and personal :)

Have a great rest of the week friends! :)

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Babies, babies, babies

Nope, I'm not pregnant, but I might secretly wish I was! ;)

I know for sure that we can not even begin to try for baby #3 until we get a bigger living space! :) We have literally outgrown EVERYTHING about this house! :) It goes way beyond the fact that its only 2 bedrooms...we could make do with that (for awhile) it's the fact that our family room (the area you walk into when you walk into the front door) has become a toy store! ;) And it's not because the children have way too much stuff and entirely too many toys that they don't even play with! :) But seriously, we need to move before even considering another child. Our lease is up in July, so we'll be moving then. Unfortunately, not into a home of our own, we will be renting again, but that's okay, I need to realize that we have SO much more than so many others in this world, and I need to thank God for ALL we have! :)

In the meantime, I will be living vicariously through all my friends who have just had children or are pregnant. I get to squeeze on adorable little babies in Small Group (one of the couples brings their sweet baby boy to class instead of putting him in the church nursery just yet). And then yesterday I got to meet sweet Baby R! The precious little boy of a high school friend. She and I her husband have been trying for years to get pregnant and by the grace of God, R came into this world last Saturday! :)

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! I took the day off tomorrow...YAY!!!! :) Prayers for a great upcoming week, friends! :)

Friday, February 17, 2012

Happy Friday! :)

Sometimes you just need a little "sunshine" to brighten your day! :) It's Friday, I took off Monday (because it's a bank holiday and I can't do my job duties when banks are closed (even though my office is open), Manny is off and Manuel is off too! :) (and of course Mia will be staying home as well! ;)) Cheers to a long weekend with my family! I hope you all have a blessed weekend.

This is Mia singing, Chris Tomlin's, "I Will Rise". Mia listens to primarily Christian music as she is in my car the majority of the week (our commute to daycare/work) and that is all I listen to. (Hubby listens to it too, however he also throws in various satellite radio stations ranging from rock to country to rap and everything in between). She is starting to learn the words to the songs and sing, "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus" and "Holy, holy, holy" really is absolutely one of the sweetest things I have ever seen! Although this video shows more of her funny side, rather than sweet side, it is equally adorable! :)


Thursday, February 16, 2012

A little of this, a little of that...

Life around the Gomez household continues to go well, but I just haven't had the urge to blog! :) No rhyme or reason, just haven't felt like it, but that doesn't mean we haven't been having fun, working (not fun! ;)), and enjoying family time. And I've still been following my favorite ladies, commenting and praying (for those of you need prayer! :))

Let's see...

On the 8th the kids both got hair cuts...Mia's 1st one! :) I think I went a little conservative (in fear) and you really can't tell either of them got a cut! :) Next time I'll tell the stylist (my dear friend Lauren) to take off a little more! :)

Even a lollipop couldn't make her happy while she was in the chair! :) She cried the entire time, but not hysterically, just tears in her eyes, saying, "I no like" :) I couldn't get a picture of Manuel, where he wasn't making silly faces! :)
Last Saturday we took the kids to see Disney on Ice-100 Years of Disney! Not to sound cliche, but it was absolutely magical. Manuel and Mia sat there in awe of it all. (and Mia enjoyed getting up and dancing like a crazy child...typical Mia! ;))

My beautiful girl
My sweet boy
Manuel loves her SO much!
My babies and their daddy (aka the best hubby and father EVER! :))
Mia's sweet friend, R (Mia & R go to daycare together. R's mommy (we work together) actually took R to Linnie's house when their daycare provider needed off, and R loved it SO much, that she switched to Linnie's full-time! :)) They are little BFF's!
A shot (albeit blurry) of the finale where all the characters came out together (this is a few of them)

Then, on Valentines Day (this is what I did for my family :)) hubby sent flowers to work (awww! :)) I hate the thought of money being spent on flowers because they die and it seems like SUCH a waste (an expensive waste! ;)) but hubby insists, so I just accept it! ;) For dinner we were just planning on doing turkey dogs, veggies and a side (the dinner I had planned BEFORE I realized it was Vday, and I knew the kiddos had their 6 & 2 year old well child visits (yes, 6 months back when I made the appt I obviously didn't think, "Hey, February 14th is Valentines Day!" ;)) but it's no big deal, hubby and I are low-key people, so we didn't have these grandious plans! And we were actually just going to stick with the turkey dog dinner (we're simple people! ;)) but hubby surprised me and whipped up this pasta dinner, homemade garlic bread, and bought a super cute Vday cake...the kids had turkey dogs and veggies! :)) It was a perfect night!

My beautiful roses (I'm not an all red roses kinda girl!) They are starting to open up and look beautiful!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentines Day

Hello Friends! :)

I hope this day finds you all feeling loved...whether it be by a spouse, children, parents, siblings or friends, we should all feel loved! :) I said specific prayers for those of you this morning who will be spending Valentines Day "differently" then you have in previous years...without a spouse, without a child, without a loved are always in my heart and prayers! :)

Hubby and I don't have any big romantic plans for today, and that is 100% a-o-k by me! :) I'm not all about the commercialism behind Valentines Day...I love heartfelt gifts, cards, and just spending time together, with the kiddos! :) Manny had to be at work early this morning, so I stayed up last night getting his "gift" ready (and the kids "gifts"). This morning they woke up to this...

 Balloons, cards and chocolates (under their cards). Each balloon says something I love about one of them (I only had a silver Sharpie so it's hard to see in pictures, but I promise each balloon is written on! :)). I tried to even it out and do 4 balloons for each person (Manny, Mia and Manuel) but unfortunately I popped one of the balloons! :( BUT that's okay because some of the "things I love" can apply to more than one of them! ;)
And I made Manuel some heart shaped pancakes (lets be honest...they are frozen pancakes that I cut into the shape of was 6am on a workday so I had to make do with the time I had! ;) (Mia eats breakfast at Linnie's so that's why this is just for Manuel, before I took him to school :))

Manuel and Mia both have Valentines Day parties today (at school and Linnie's) so they took special treats for their friends! :) I will be leaving work around 3 to take both kids to their 6 & 2 year well child check-ups (clearly wasn't thinking when I made the appts 6 months ago that today was Valentines Day! ;)) and then we'll head home for some snuggling, dinner and relaxing with Daddy! I wouldn't have it any other way!

Happy Valentines Day friends! 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Show of Us Your Life: Working (outside of the home! :)) Moms

I started reading Kelly's Korner shortly after the birth of her adorable daughter Harper. Kelly has has gone on to have another super adorable daughter, Hollis, and I just love reading her blog. She is a Christian, and seems like the sweetest, down to Earth person I've ever "met" and she's Southern, which I just adore! :)

Each week she does a link-up with various topics. I don't think I've ever linked up before, but this week, the topic hits very close to home, so I thought I'd give it a try! :)

Working Moms (meaning who work outside of the home. I know stay at home mommies work too! :))

I think there is sometimes a stereotype that comes along with moms who work outside of the home...we don't WANT to spend all day with our children, we just aren't willing to make the sacrifices needed in order to stay home, and the list goes on and on. Let me tell you, I love my children more than anything in this world, equally as much as the next mom, whether she stays home, works from home, or works outside of the home. We are on the same team...Team Motherhood and should value and respect one another. Some moms choose to stay home, some moms choose to work outside of the home, some work outside of the home because they have no choice! Whatever your reason, whatever it is you do, embrace it! :)

I work outside of the home, in an office, because, in order to keep our family afloat, that's what I HAVE to do! I'd like to stay home eventually, but for now, that's not in the cards, and I've come to accept that, enjoy the time I do have with my children (and husband) and absolutely, 100% make the most of it! When I'm not working, I'm with my children, plain and simple, and that's what works for our family. My husband and I get out (alone) maybe once every couple of months, and again, that's what we choose, and that's what works for our family! :) Our weekends are spent together, as a family, making memories and enjoying life...whether that be our Friday night forts in the family room, or our Saturday adventures here, there and everywhere, or our Sunday, after church and Bible study, movies and snuggling. I don't think my children are going to feel less loved or less cared for when they look back at their childhoods...I hope all they remember is love and happiness! :)

My son is in school while I'm working (and at after school care for about 1 hour and 45 minutes until my husband picks him up). My daughter makes the commute with me each day (about 45 minutes) to our daycare ladies house (Linda, we call her "Linnie"). Linnie is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! I would want no one else on this planet taking care of Mia but her (except me, of course! ;)) Linnie watched Manuel from 8 months old (he was with my sister-in-law prior to that) until he started preschool at 4! She's watched Mia from 8 weeks and will continue to watch her (God willing) until the time she starts preschool. I think it is absolutely crucial, if you work, to adore the person who takes care of your child(ren). I'm not sure I could have brought myself to return to work (after having Mia), if it wasn't for Linnie. She is that awesome! :) I'm also very thankful that I work at company where I can work from home when I need to! That is huge and SUCH a big help! :)

I'm excited for this link up and to meet other working moms!

Happy Friday! :)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Manuel's birthday party

We had a party for Manuel last Saturday, at a local bowling alley (that's what he wanted this year instead of Chuck E Cheese's! :)) We invited all the little boys in his class, some other friends and then of course family! The pictures aren't the best because it was "Cosmic Bowl" which meant the whole thing was glow in the dark, but still everyone was all smiles! :) It was a great time!!!!! Then on the day of Manuel's actual birthday (1/31/12) we did the traditional breakfast picnic (with donuts) and then of course Manuel headed off to school. That night we took him out for dinner, with his special Birthday Bear (another class "mascot" that the children get to bring home overnight for their birthdays)

I'll let the pictures speak for themselves! :)

And for good measure...

 Poppy got him Wii....he was BEYOND thrilled! :)

 LOVE the morning hair! :)

Friday, February 3, 2012

Test to see if I know how to post a video! :)

This is just a test to see if I've FINALLY figured out how to post a video to my blog!!!!! :) But it's a super adorable video, so take a peek! :)

(And yes, my voice is THAT annoying! ;))

Winner, Reminder and Praise! :)

Happy Friday Everyone!

I want to apologize for the delay in picking a winner for my My Memories Suite giveaway! I am normally on top of those things, but it just slipped my mind. So, without further ado, the winner of the giveaway was Heather! Congrats Heather. I sent you a e-mail and as soon as I hear back from the company with your promo code I will send it over! :)

Don't forget to become a fan of my families Facebook page by February 7th to be automatically entered to win an ADORABLE Valentines Day basket full of delicious Italian cookies and a few other goodies! :)

And PRAISE GOD that when I went to my gyn last night, to review the results of my MRI, although I do have two cysts ("rather large" ones per my Dr.) they will not affect my fertility, they are not solid masses, and it will be a simple procedure to get rid of them, should they become any larger. Thank you God!!!!! :)

I still need to post Manuel's party pictures! My plan is to do that this weekend because for the first time in a LONG time, we don't have anything scheduled! YAY!!!!! :)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Pour Your Heart Out: Should I?

Hello friends! This is post is pretty much all over the place, so feel free to come back tomorrow for fun birthday party pictures! :) Please say a prayer for me (not just for this post, because at the end, it'll be evident I need prayer ;)) but because the minor concerns my Primary Care doctor seemed to have about my MRI don't seem so minor gyn who JUST now got a copy of the scans (my PCP never faxed them like she said she was going to!) wants to see me tomorrow! I pray it's nothing! But without further ado...

It's been awhile since I've linked up with Shell to Pour Your Heart Out and goodness knows I need it, so here goes nothing...

Oh, and if you are stopping by for the first time from Shell's blog, I ask you to PLEASE refrain from thinking I'm a total nutso based off of this post! ;) Look around at my other posts to get a peek into my totally normal life! ;)

As I mentioned in a post last week, I have been S-T-R-U-G-G-L-I-N-G lately, big time! And to the outsider, the random Facebook friend, heck, even the close friend, it might seem like I have it all together, and I'm being honest here friends, I don't. And not in the "I'm a full time working outside of the home, momma-to-two, wife, just trying to keep it all together" sort of way. I mean, I always come across so positive, it's just my nature...I'm always sharing bits of inspiration with people, praying for people (some, I don't even know in real life and will never meet), and just being upbeat and "that person" that so many can turn to for a smile, a word of inspiration to put a happy spin on a tough time in their life, etc. (you get the point! :)) but inside, inside this head of mine, it is the exact opposite...I am in a constant state of worry (I wouldn't go as far as to say panic, but definitely worry). I am in a constant state of "what if". I'm not a mental health professional (CLEARLY! ;)) but I'd venture to say that thinking about your children passing away, several times a week, and how would you EVER get through that, how does a parent ever survive something so horrific, etc. IS NOT NORMAL! And this is ALL THE TIME! Hubby knows about, and he suggests that I stop following/reading so many stories about sick children, children who have lost their lives, etc. and he's probably right (Not that he is being heartless, my husband has a HUGE heart, but for someone like me, he just thinks its too much on my heart and mind, every single day!). That can't be helping the situation, and I understand that, BUT I can't! These parents needs support, these children needs prayers, and me being me, want to "help" in anyway I can. I can't turn away, even when I don't know them! And although that may seem strange, it does help me have a very "real" perspective on life...I am not "too good" of a person to be exempt from pain, heartache, struggle and trials in life that you feel like you could never get through. There is no such thing as, "That (whatever "that" is) can't happen to my family because we've already experienced enough sadness in our lives." When you read of a family who lost their son 4 months ago, and then a few days ago the husband/father dies...that is reality, sad, true, harsh reality of life. We aren't exempt from pain, and there is no such thing as "too much heartache for one family/person". Now, if all of this insight led me to focus on just being the most amazing wife and mother I can be, each and every day, and not take one second for granted, then wonderful, that would be awesome. But unfortunately that's not the case...I just dwell on it all, often.

Struggle, struggle, struggle...

It's all around me! From my blog friends who I adore to one of my best friends, in the entire world. just came clean to being addicted to prescription medicine. And please understand, this is not some random person, struggling through life with no goals, no aspirations, etc. This is someone with a VERY lucrative career (one of the most established careers you can find in the world!), a beautiful family, loving spouse, gorgeous home, had it together more than ANYONE I KNOW, and just like that, addiction creeps in and begins to ruin their life (I say "begins" because they have admitted it early on and are seeking help). Then it makes me think, it can happen to them, so it can certainly send Manny back to what he was (instead of just living and celebrating the last, almost, 3 years of sobriety!)

It's a vicious cycle in my head...

So, what does the title of my post have to do with all of this "Should I?" at what point do I say that all of this internalizing is too much, it's not normal, I worry FAR too much, and perhaps I should seek help and/or medication? But see heres the thing...I HATE being medicated! I've had two c-sections (and for those of you who've had one, you know how painful the healing can be) but yet I refused to take pain medicine until the pain would be so severe I could barely move..why? Because I hate feeling anything but 100% like myself! (yes, I used to use drugs, but that was all pre-children! Ever since having children I would NEVER EVER use a drug recreationally!) I had laparscopic surgery and again, refused to bring home any pain medication because I didn't want to have "that feeling"! And yes, I understand that prescription pain medicine and anxiety medicine are two different classes, but still, I'm scared to start on something (Lexapro, Zoloft, etc.) and then be a walking zombie who shows no emotion. Where's the balance?!?!? Ugh! I need to do something because the current way my brain is living is not healthy. Do I just keep doing what I'm doing and prove to myself  I can overcome it without medication? Am I not seeking further help because I'm ashamed? I know I'm not depressed, NOT AT ALL, but anxiety problems, as hard as it is to admit it, yes. And I understand that no one can answer these questions but me!
So friends, where am I going with this???? I don't even know, but thank you for listening/reading and letting me pour out my heart! :)